so sleepy but I can't .so tired,weary,exhausted,pondering,erratic,disordered....you can list just identical and similar other words.owing to this state,I have been decided to write this survey..it may come to the aid of me..relieve me.they ought to read it one day.. heard by chance about it..understand so deep deeper deeply what I'm about to..what I intend..why when girls engaged not get married yet change no not change..turn..totally turning..they are interested in trivial things..they are into superficial matters comparing to their old dreams,hopes,desires and achievements,,!!Does engagement turn the person highly?!!make them another persons flattering and pretending perfectly..begin to think how they can satisfy their fiancés in any way even if it's not satisfy oneself..why!!where have your real personality been??where does it disappeared!!you hated to wear short skirt and it's ok now..your mobile was silent all the time but now it deafens my ears..you didn't accept the advices from me but from him "welcome" nevertheless my mine for your interest but his is against your dears..you had dreams to continue your studying and now leave them and give up..you did know me personally and now I forget your face..you were nice and kindness but right now so arrogant..O.O..Are this results for the sweetness speech that heard from their fiancés or what??HAAAAAAAAAA!!!..up to now they are engaged.I wont know what will happen if they get married O.O" Disaster".they might change their names to complete turning trip..it may you are saying "no no not like this..not so bad at all" but I will let you with my shocked experiences..
*I had a friend and after THREE complete years,I knew BY CHANCE that she was engaged three years ago..
*I had a friend and she was so hesitated >>what she will be wear..green or yellow..I remembered that day well..she treated me so shamelessness just for a man didn't know him yet..after all she or he reject other I did't know and care..she apologized but I just withdrew myself bit by bit till I succeeded.*God just skip this part..
*two of my close persons are changing totally..they are the reason and motivation behind writing this post.
I'm so tired to complete other or even think about so.
*what I mentioned above as an examples are for mentioning not for counting.
p.s..I'm not jealous or envy them.I don't care about them more..I'M JUST INTERESTED IN BIG MINDS..INTO BIG THOUGHTS only..I can get married any time but I don't want right now.
p.p.s..might you welcome my soul monologue!!