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I've been decided to go back..you can't imagine what i'm missing you

This blogger is retired!!

for some reasons..I decided to stop blogging.I'm so glad that we knew each other and shared interests' each other and I knew your real nature..

I would just say thanks so much to everyone who supported me to create this and encouraged me not to give up and helped me in improving EL and everyone..everyone

everyone of you has really unique charming..

but really I have to stop..

I'll be missing you,reading yours and looking forward at your next posts.

so.

Happy feast

Time passes.This time of Ramadan has passed.I wish you a nice and happy feast asking Allah to accept our fast,our actions,our prayers and our engagement.

BIG MINDS-BIG THOUGHTS!!

so sleepy but I can't .so tired,weary,exhausted,pondering,erratic,disordered....you can list just identical and similar other words.owing to this state,I have been decided to write this survey..it may come to the aid of me..relieve me.they ought to read it one day.. heard by chance about it..understand so deep deeper deeply what I'm about to..what I intend..why when girls engaged not get married yet change no not change..turn..totally turning..they are interested in trivial things..they are into superficial matters comparing to their old dreams,hopes,desires and achievements,,!!Does engagement turn the person highly?!!make them another persons flattering and pretending perfectly..begin to think how they can satisfy their fiancés in any way even if it's not satisfy oneself..why!!where have your real personality been??where does it disappeared!!you hated to wear short skirt and it's ok now..your mobile was silent all the time but now it deafens my ears..you didn't accept the advices from me but from him "welcome" nevertheless my mine for your interest but his is against your dears..you had dreams to continue your studying and now leave them and give up..you did know me personally and now I forget your face..you were nice and kindness but right now so arrogant..O.O..Are this results for the sweetness speech that heard from their fiancés or what??HAAAAAAAAAA!!!..up to now they are engaged.I wont know what will happen if they get married O.O" Disaster".they might change their names to complete turning trip..it may you are saying "no no not like this..not so bad at all" but I will let you with my shocked experiences..

*I had a friend and after THREE complete years,I knew BY CHANCE that she was engaged three years ago..

*I had a friend and she was so hesitated >>what she will be wear..green or yellow..I remembered that day well..she treated me so shamelessness just for a man didn't know him yet..after all she or he reject other I did't know and care..she apologized but I just withdrew myself bit by bit till I succeeded.*God just skip this part..

*two of my close persons are changing totally..they are the reason and motivation behind writing this post.

I'm so tired to complete other or even think about so.

*what I mentioned above as an examples are for mentioning not for counting.

p.s..I'm not jealous or envy them.I don't care about them more..I'M JUST INTERESTED IN BIG MINDS..INTO BIG THOUGHTS only..I can get married any time but I don't want right now.

p.p.s..might you welcome my soul monologue!!

Unexpected Reactions and VS..

I just can't forget so.

*once I noticed a friend promised a lot and didn't applied them.I asked her that what did state of promising mean to she?!!.she said"didn't applied"..I was being shocked for a while.I said to her that did she know "promise equals swear"..she said that she was not child to hear this.

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Questioning Tag

I was tagged by Smart CoOKie

Ten how’s:

1. How did you get one of your scars? when I was age.I fell from train,it made scar on the right eyebrow.

2. How did you celebrate your last birthday? I didn't do ever..It's forbidden.

3. How are you feeling at this moment? blend of emotions..sad..don't wanna talk with someone..waiting for something.

4. How did your night go last night? so mess.my sister's fiancé came.

5. How did you do in high school? I did awesome.

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? my father bought it.

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)? from time to another.

8. How much money did you spend last month? I don't know.

9. How old do you want to be when you get married? I don't know. But when I finish my studying.

10. How old will you be at your next birthday? 22. If Allah wills.

Nine what’s:

1. Your mother’s name? Dalal.

2. What did you do last weekend? I spent it on the bed.I had fever.

3. What is the most important part of your life? My family,education and my dreams.

4. What would you rather be doing? Travelling to Korea and meet someone.

5. What did you last cry over? someone accused and injured me.

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? being alone.

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? completing my study and travelling to Korea so far.

8. What are you worried about? the one who I'll marry him.

9. What did you have for breakfast? as long as we are in Ramadan..dates.

Eight you’s:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? no.

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken? Yes.

3. Have you ever been out of the country? yes.

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? yes.

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? Yes.

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach? No.

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you? No.

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? Yes.

Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw? My father.

2. Who was the last person you texted? my father.

3. Who was the last person you hung out with? My sister.

4. Who was the last person to call you? My father.

5. Who did you last hug? My little brother.

6. Who is the last person who texted you? my student.

7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? my friend.

Six where’s:

1. Where does your best friend(s) live? in Medina.

2. Where did you last go? Alharam.

3. Where did you last hang out? Alharam.

4. Where do you go to school? I don't.I graduated last semester {praises be to Allah}.hope to continue..pray for me:)

5. Where is your favorite place to be? Korea.

6. Where did you sleep last night? In my room.

Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you? Yes.

2. Do you ever wish you were someone else? no.

3. Do you know the muffin man? No.I'll google for him If Allah wills.

4. Does the future scare you? Yes.

5. Do your parents know about your blog? I think.

Four why’s:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friends? just hearts acceptance.

2. Why did you get into Blogging? My friend Abrar encouraged me and I was looking for a place can listen to me and know my nature.

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have? my mother loved it.

4. Why are you doing this survey? I was tagged and to know me more.

Three if’s:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be? seeing who I eager to.

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? definitely.

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring? my mom.

Two would-you-ever’s:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? No.

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? sure.

One last question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now? Thanks for God.His graces more than what I want..

During my absence?!!

A month ago was written the last post in mine and during all this era I didn't post thing..my circumstances didn't allow me to blog,comment and gratulate you happy and blessing Ramadan..
During this time:
*my mom entered hospital for a while and she recovered (praises be to Allah)..for this I would like to thank everyone who supported me and prayed for her.
*we travel to Dammam to see my grandfather..he is in hospital until now..may Allah get him will soon in this blessing month.
*we rented a new home and began to furnish it.,we will move soon (if Allah wills).
*The new servant came..on time:))
That's all and praises be to Allah for everything..
All in all..I miss you dears..I wanna wish you happy Ramadan..I know that I'm being late at this but just accept it..
may Allah support and help us to fast Ramadan,spend it well and gain FORGIVENESS.